OMG

who could those 2 be????

omg. i think one of them is.. chan hon???

then another one...

omg..

it cant be true... 8O

ITS HONG KEN!!!

lol

WHAT ARE THEY DOING??????



lol. hong ken is so gonna kill me when he see this.

psst. don tell him i put this up k? spoiling his reputation. xD

rmb don tell him. >.<


xX wu liao Xx
gays..


ps: nah, they're just playing chan hon's iphone. the tap tap game. lo. DAMN SYIOK WAN. xD

you guys kinda sien hor? i oso dono wat i can do. lol. can lah~ 2 photoes first bah. x)

ps: at least i'm better than a girl who didn't update since hols started and 2 guys who made their blog private.... right?? xD

YOU KNOW WAT???

i can't believe there's ppl reading my lame long meaningless crap...

lol.

haha. TAN ZI LING.

since you would read my blog. you would probably see this. xD


ar la. i dono wat to say, sommore you would leave comments man.. woah. xD


xXzi lingXx
sorry sorry sorry~ xD

btw, this is a long and meaningless post. i doubt anyone of you is going to read from the first to the last word. so go look for the links in my blog and go to their blog or wtv. or you can just press 'x' sign on the top right corner. if you are not gonna read this, don read a single word of it and go away.

..................................................................................................................
hehe. uhm i can explain. >.<"

well, this is the perfect time for blogging isnt it? ^^

3.17AM and i'm still here.

listening Pavane.

i wonder why...



i tried to explain my weirdness of staying up at this kind of time.

not busy with stuff.

but plainly just watching movie, sight reading scores, and listening music.


i find myself rediculously enjoying this moment.

perfectly calm and relax.


*********


i guess, i just love the quietness and lonliness of the night (early morning )

just before this post. i was so hot tempered.

i thought it was me.

but i guess not.


i couldn't bare the morning and afternoons.

everything is going on.

that's wat i despise.


****


being totally alone downstairs now.

i couldnt' just love it more.



mom, sis, granma all sleeping(obviously)

no sound.

the 'shhh'-ing of the fan.

and my window media player making sounds.(and youtube)

beautiful ones.


not like the morning and afternoons,

tv noise of granma,

electric shops behind my house making unbearable noise as if they are the only ones on earth.

cars in the neighbourhood which had its alarm set off and which seems like hours till its freakin owner manage to get his/her keys.

neighbour yelling to each other.

unbearable hot weather.

stupid ppl which i am suppose to communicate with.(and i dono how)

seeing ppl acting to stay good.

cars zooming around and not have a look at their engines.

yada yada.. etc....

(don wanna spoil my mood)


what my point is,

now..

i can on my music as loud as i want too...

listen to it carefully without no external noises acting on it.

no one demanding me here and there.

no one to act as if he had the power.

no one nagging.


you noe wat?

i used to be afraid of being alone downstairs at night.

haha. imagine that.


****

well, wat you didn't noe was that i was sick last night.

with unbearable headache....

minor fever....

my eyes were burning,

my head acted as if it had been poked on or something.


but i didn't went to sleep.

i stayed downstair.

watch tv till i couldn't stand the pain.


i dono why either,

just don feel like sleeping.

so yea, haha, i wouldn't go to sleep because i like the night so much. xDDDD


****

im such a loner

but that's me.

loner takes up 60% of me.

the other 30% is the laughing, high gei, as if i have no 'heart stuff'(chinese) in school

the other 10% is... i don care.


i'm not that always happy.

sometimes i do feel i'm fake. somehow.

but im getting real.

yea.

i was faker last time. xDD

i mean, literally.

fake as in i don represent myself.


**

i was asking myself.

when is the TRUE-EST me?


i'm true now.

since nothing is stopping me from being it.


but when is the 30% happiness of me true?

i think think think,

i thought thought thought.


and i've got none. xDDD

sometimes i laugh to lighten the atmosphere.

do make it seem... i'm laughing?

i dono.

for others to see i guess?


happy?

100% wans??

nah.

the closest i get is 95%.

of course there are times i'm superbly happy.

but there are always cons present aren't there?

you're happy

but you have other stuff worrying you in heart.

stuff that you cared of.


****


ar la. these are a bunch of craps

these are meant to go into my diary.

but mine's upstairs. =(

anyone go get it for me?


xX wtv. haha Xx
signing off at 3.47AM

i'm really in bad mood these days..

anything can trigger my boling point..

and hatred is acumulating inside me..


i long for justice..

i lost the trust..

but i freakin don care.

its you people who don see your own fault in any case.


what you see is only others fault.

but who is the cause.


and what's the freakin use of your eyes if you wouldn't just SEE.

just cut it off and i wont' blame you for not seeing.


you blind person.

the 2nd face of her made you think she is matured and wat the heck.


as if she will never start a fight and talk like she is a devil.


you never trusted me.

but trusted her devilish acting skill.


wats more is she doens't even think she did anything wrong.

how dare she go tell you when she is the one who is the cause.



i can see horns on her head.

longer and more crooked that i have ever seen on others.


she acted in your presence.

but i am the one who saw her devil.


but i'm dissapointed in you.

how can you not believe me.

i tried to explain.

but you dont take it in.


i owuldn't mention her devilish side to you.

dont waste my time.

but you made me say sorry.

i had to spill.


then you know you couldnt' blame me then.

and scolded her for a blink time.

your freakin stupid brain should have knew she would repeat this over and over again.


but wat was for me to say.

i hid it in.

i shut up when i was blamed forher faults.


but wat the heck.

since she was wrong.

i don pick fight on her.

and tat is the best that i could do.


but you asked for more.

you asked me to treat her well.


i don understand.

oyu are a failure.

a total failure.


she's a bitch.

but you adore that bitch.


could you just leave me in peace.

and just go away.


xX....Xx
cooling down. stop naggin me.

once,

sour was always there for me..

i was on top of its list of importance..

but i guess i just took it for granted,

and with my uttermost stupundeous brain thought that it would last forever.


now that sour's gone.

i realise how lonely i feel without sour..

there's no one to count on 24/7.

never have i missed sour so much.


though, it'll still be there sometimes,

but i ain't that special someone anymore.


to think that sour needs me more i never predicted this day,

and i found out i need it more then ever.


haihs,

i guess its my fault?

yea, thank you anyways.

xX haha Xx
xDDD


ps: don worry ppl, this ain't an emo post.
pps: and this sour person is just a fren that i miss talking to.
ppps: please stop guessing who sour is.

Straighten Up...

untangled all those tangles..

i guess i finally know the answer...

hahahaha....

damn faarrr-nnneeeeyyyy lah.. lol.


going genting on thurs. won't see me 2 days.

lol. i know i know. no one would miss me. lol


lam lam ask me go away! haha

lalalallalalaaal...


i'm kinda weird today.
don mind me.


toodles. ^^


xX miss Xx
missy you. =D

...

i watching drama..

...

with a blanket on me.


hahaha. and all i on is fan.

so cold lah today.


but i like! ^^

rain more rain more. xD

2012 : end of the world

watched this movie edy.

the first impression was great.

all the special effects and stuff were spectacular.

but i totally agree with the critics.

it DID NOT really arouse the 2012 awareness.

its didn't really made you think about the thruthness of this prediction.

even the ending was happy, leaving the audience thinking the thing might not be real anyways.

the movie was like a game.

the pilot drove the aeroplane like in game.

making this to be as if so fun.

...................................................................................................................................................................

so here comes the question.

what IF 2012 is the end of the world?

0.O

all these years, we had always thought the end of the world is child saying. impossible.

'who cares bout end of the world, well not me. i'll be dead by then. let the ppl that time worry.'

but 2012, is 3 freakin years away ok. 3 years till you die, aint short ok.

TAKE THIS FREAKIN SERIOUSLY.

ok, maybe you are not convinced, since scientist has got this prediction wrong several times.

but ...

death

is something that wont just happen during end of the world.

its gonna happen anyday anytime.

SO WHAT IF THIS 2012 THING DID NOT HAPPEN???

think bout this..

one could walk out of the road and got crashed by a car.

one could get murdered for no reasons.

one could die for unknown sickness.

this shows how fragile life can be.

err... actually no need read de. i just wrote out my tangling messy thought out. seriously. no need read


can you believe it?



one year... (almost)

few more weeks and i'm not a form 4 anymore.

what awaits me are unpredictable.

well, life is unpredictable.

i totally understand that now.


been through a year.

this is definitely not an easy.


i start off real sad, stress, frustrated, helpless, pathetic, useless, unconfident, being blamed on, being wrongly justified.

that few starting months were really hard on me.

life back then was unbearable. now that i thought of it,

its already so long ago.


questions that i strained to find answers.

disasters i tried to refrain from.

worries i fear.

results that i hid away..


from worrying, and living in anxiety...

now is far over.


stuff that i once cared about.

are merely a pea now.



if you had to say, i really did learned a lot this year.

learning from the bads,

and changed for the better.

learning from the goods,

and tried to be that.





i learned that,

in life, you may have done a lot.

sacrificed a lot for a certain stuff.


but with one harmless thing you've done wrong.

you'll be the one for the blame.


i always scolded those characters in dramas,

for being wrongly blamed but yet not tell the thruth.

expecially in korean drama.

but now i understand,

i really do.

sometimes you just cant do much.





i learned that,

if you always cared about wat ppl think of you.

you'll leave in sorrows.

the way ppl treat you.

ppl think of you.


is it THAT important.


expecially with those useless suckers.

do you need to care.


well obviously no.

as long as you noe you did nothing wrong.

wtf. who cares. well, not me.


i've always say.

ppl who didn't like me.

i dont like them too.

they aint worth for me to hate.




but there are stuff that i learned too.

in a good way.



i think the BEST MEMORY i had this year.

is in PMO CAMP.


i learned how good ppl around me can be.

i learned to trust.

i learned to share joys.

i learned to work in a group, in a form.

i learned how to sacrifice for my frens. ( that hot games under the torturing suns )

i learned to be grateful for the others.

i learned to help.

i learned to be help.


those day,

during the camp.


how tired all of us can be.

we never gave up.


PMO...

a place where i learned the MOST FROM.

if you didn't know.

all the stuff i wrote up there is all learned from PMO. lol


i will never forgot the days living in school.

its the family feeling that i cannot forget.


4 years ain't short.

it makes me feel old thinking back.


its like almost all our batch.

you understnad them like you never had.


especially lam ar, zi xin ar, jia hui ar..... and................................... 2810841608743614 how list all. lol


you know wat you can do.

you noe wat makes them angry.

you noe wat you need not care.

frens that i'm close to or not.

had changed me in certain ways.

all of the ppl i thanked earlier.

really appreciated it.


friday saturday repeating.

competition that time sommore everyday.

i love you guys.


i'm happy because of you guys.

but i'm also sad sometime because of those guys.

my secondary life is full with you guys.





to be continued....

YOU NOE WAT????

actually ar...

i dono wat to post about.

=.="


i hate you.

bye


xX go die lah Xx
don wan see you next life.

finally everything is settle...

but now i got pn loo phobia. haha. nvm.

i suddenly had this feeling.... being grateful to all the people around me.

those who had helped, those who had cared, those who were there.

THANK YOU!! * i noe this is random.

Thank You....

mom for being the best mom in the world.

granma for being the bext granma in the world.

wenn for being the best fren in many ways and never fail to make me happy and hyper. to make me emo-less. ^^

lam lam for being the listener. for sitting with me in class accompany me.

zi xin a.k.a mama for taking care of me during terenganu competition and being so fa qiao. xD

hui qing for being the best practice partner and being so cute. =D

hong ken for helping me so much in pmo and didn't blame me when i got him into trouble. sorry in a way too.

jia hui for being so freakin blur and let me bully. xD

shun-ting for being my lao po. but divorce edy. haha

wei loon for being the best di zi buddy, best science tutor and best guy buddy.

yi xian for being always there( most of the time) to chat when i'm sien. and never complain. ^^

chan hon for his earthquake-people-jumping stunt whenever i'm sleeping. lol.

tan jie for being the best and only di zi teacher and sending me home from terengganu and having responsibilties for my safety. sorry in a way. lol. real nice person.

jia yee for being the sweetest girl and fren.

joo lin for letting me scold.

desmond for being so nice to kacau, nice and lame fren. a caring one too. and try to be be the happiest and emo-less and responsible person. * when you read this, don say zadou, but quite long liao lah. 3 sentence wei. hahah. *

tian ming for temaning me take bus and being one of the nicest person i know

yeap chin for being making me laugh of his perasanness.

gerald for always argueing with me and being a real nice person, although i always scold him. xD. but thats the fun part. haha

christine cheah for being the only primary and the best one i still have till now.

joelyn for being the best tuition buddy.

celine for being nice tuition fren.

wee heng for his kia su ness and perasan ness.

shu-mei for her open-ness and optimism.

mei zhuen for being a sapo. xD

hong jian for being a gentleman always.

yee qian for helping me with my treasure games during camp.

mui yee for helping me queue and take my food guring installation.

poh khee for being the ultimate helper during treasure games.

ray aun for being nice and teach me rubics.

suzanna for being act cute-ness. haha. and being real cute.

shuk ling for saying she miss me all the time.

zi ling for always saying SORRY. xD

chun chee for being my '死废材' senior. xD

chun wai for being the ultimate funny senior.

yi lyn for being the caring senior.

wei lian for being the 'jin1 gak4' senior.

wye xiangfor being the humble senior.

mr terry for being the best add maths tuition teacher.

pn chan for being the cutest chemistry teacher.

siew ling for calling me 'kai hui jie' xD

heng yan for making the car journey not that sien.

wei chean for being the only fren i know since kindergarten.

ji cheng for being my best guy cousin and childhood fren.

khin khuin for being the class joker.

siva for being the funny and weird joker.

ming lyn jie jie for being my cousin.

joanne for being the sa po -est. lol

mon yun for not bringing her brain all the time. xD and let me zhat her. haha

zuo hao for teaching me chemistry polymer. and help me score one mark in the exams. haha.

tian huey for taking care of me during terengganu competition.

dad for being a nice dad.

jon for being the only fren i have in singapore and always chuan me. haha

yen theen for being the best secretary and helped me in many pmo projects.

hong liang for being the presiden aka papa of pmo. and a caring senior.

seng yang for being the dao gei senior and chuan one too.

xin hui for being the nice senior to chat with me.

yik men for being a humble senior.

lian foong for lending me his shoulder to lean on during he zhou. xD

chun hoe for being insulted by me all the time and do lame stuff with me. xD

wern yean for being the cutest junior ever.

yee wei for her smile and cute. =)

yi yan for helping me keep my stand all the time. =)

rong sheng for letting me hit him and listen to my complains. lol

wye-ming for being the class joker during form 2

ching pei for letting bully, like seriously, and like totally don mind de wei. =.=!!!

chiew ting for simply just being nice.

sook wei for being the sa po and chat with me right b4 her band interview. haha

ley kuan for being smart. hahahaha

valerie for being the tuition buddy in mrs teh for so long alrd.

jun leng for being ONCE my FIRST tuition buddy. haha

alison for being cute and friendly and being the one whom i get to know in the weirdest way. YOU NOE WAT YOU DID. by calling me XXX. ==

jonathan for being nice? lol. i dono. i;m just listing all the band members. haha

boon chang for talking to me in class occasionally. err.. dono

dylan for asking miss sim to choose me as bio rep. NOT. ==

shu ling for letting me copy her homeworks and being nice.

shu li for talking to me in science lab.

yi-yu for being the dai ga jie and ONCE by best high gei tuition bud.

shen wen for being the nice-diff-group senior.

li ying for being the advisor and buying me 100+ during lsat year competition when i was suddenly sick during he zhou.

yee min for being strict and scary. xD

si jun for being super scary. lol lol.

henry for being the one to connect me after being seperated after primary. and rating my blog as the NEIRDIEST BLOG. not.

joshua for being the person to let me zhat celine. haha

mr teh for being my first tuition teacher. which is standard 2. which enables me to never use 'never' instead of 'didn't', pronouncing 'Wens-day' instead of 'wen-NES-day' lol and a lot of other common grammar mistakes.

shi yi for being my treasurer boss. x)

chuen hong for helping me so much.

chee han for being super friendly and funny senior. xD

arthur for being once a primary fren. and for still rmb-ing me till now. for calling when i was in atria browsing wii games. lol

wee kii for like being the sweetest and nicest fren during primary.

jin zhi for being the ONCE best frend.

扯铃老师 for teaching me 扯铃 lah of course. haha. and being so freakin nice to be the one to connect back to me after so many years. and teaching me the love for chinese traditional games which was my life before music came to me. thank you. i enjoy 扯铃 very much. and i'm proud to say i noe how to play it. and teaching me success doesn't come without SWEAT. lol. and a lot of fallings.

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2nd edit (oct 28)

surprise to see your name here?

surprise to NOT see your name here?

well its because...

my mind think no there. blank now. haha

just to say, whoever you are, you have been a person that came into my life...

important or not..

person i know or i dont...

person i've met or not...

you guys had changed me in some ways.

towards the perspective of life

and made me who i am today.

thank you. THANK YOU ALL.

what you guys had done to me cannot put into such short words.

even if i've hated you, disagrees with you, and you have done something bad to me.

THANK YOU STILL.

you have taught me NOT to be someone like you.

you have taught me ways to bear with ppl like you.

you have taught me that there always gonna be ppl like you in life.

^^

thank you to everyone in the world. ^^

off now. bb.

xX haha Xx

this is hilarious.xD

saddening...

wasn't seeing this coming i guess....

actually....

i did. xD


last time during terengganu alrd dicussed about this with hong ken.

he say he will not let it happen.

but it still did.

lol.

well, it has nothing to do with him anyways.


just went to see the so called windy's blog. lol lol.

semangatnya they all. haha

i asked tan jie to go see liao..


maybe he will see until until until...

cry? lol. just saying.

so touching mah hor? lol


walao eh.

sommore ruey ying say chuen hong created a group in facebook call ' we need tan jie'

lol. ZADAO!!!



wah. tan jie, YOU SHOULD BE SUPER TOUCHED WEII!!!

see... you shall see how concerning we are.

haha. xD


you happy or not?? xD


but guys, don worry so much first k??

sigh. shall wait for the outcome of our dicussion session with pn loo first.

will tell you guys as fast as possible lah..


don worry lah....

don worry so much.....

worry no use........

make you sad only.....


been having this thing is mind whole day after i noe about this...

keep thinking of wat to say..

THINKING STRATEGY.

lol.

no strategy sure let pn loo win.

haha.

cannot cannot.



dono wat to say..

emo-ing....


xX == Xx
....

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do visit when free. ^^ and comment.

although those are not real good.

hehe... just scraps. xD

Life Brief Candle.....

typical candle shot.

fire shot.

the white light up there is wat that makes this shot special.

personal fav.

personal fav

for more pics and close up pics.

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=321632&id=625535313&l=be1f81b6aa

xX light Xx

firoscious....

ps: told you my blog ain't dead. xP

The Man in the Vineyard

oh man.

i'm hooked up weii!!!

not good...

not good.....

still got exam...

hooked up....

HOOKE'S LAW!!!

lol.

i think you guys are going to get tired with these random scientific terms.

haha.

oh well.

just telling you guys this korean drama is really nice. xD

lol.

a drama worth for me to watch till 4.15AM is definitely a good one.

xD

tata

xX HOOKE'S LAW Xx

for hooks...

1 more day till DOOMS DAY..... T.T

pressure....

FEEL THE PRESSURE!!!!!!! >.<

pressure....

water pressure, atmospheric pressure and gas pressure.....



according to Boyle's Law..

when the pressure increases, the volume decreases.....

relating Boyle's Law to kinetic theory..

its shows that when the gas is compressed, the no. of particles per unit increase. therefore, the frequency of collision between the gas particles and the wall of container increases resulting in the increase in the pressure of gas.

this means.....

when the exam pressure acting on me increases, the volume of my brain decreases.

thus,

when i have pressure, i cannot study.....

conclusion: i should not have pressure. xP


The Pressure Law....

pressure is directly poportional to its absolute temperature.

when the temperatue of a gas in a container rises, the average kinetic energy of the gas particles increases and move faster. hence the gas molecules collide with the wall of the container more frequesntly and more vigorously. this increase the rate of change in momentum and hence, the pressure increases.

So....

when the weather gets hotter ( temperature rise), i cannot study well, so i have PRESSURE!!!

thus...

i should on air-cond when the weather kills.

conclusion: malaysia should have for season. xD or i shouldn't be in malaysia. alternative methods.



Charles' Law..

volume is directly poportional to the absolute temperature.

when the temperatue increase, the kinetic energy increase.the gas particles moves faster and collide more frequently with the wall of the container. thus, the pressure that acts on the wall of the container increases. since the volume of the gas is allow to increase freely, the gas expands, with its pressure decrease until the internal gas pressure is equal to the pressure exerted externally.

So....

when the temperatuse increase, the knowledge particle in my brain collide more frequently. and pressure acts on the wall of my brain.

if this continues....

MY BRAIN WILL EXPLODE!!!!( volume increase)

conclusion: i still should on aircond. xD

............................................................................................................................................

lalala~

lol. this is practicing.

lol.

hey ppl,

i spend my afternoon writing all the physics formula in a paper.

its ALL THE FORMULA FROM CHAPTER 1 TO 4!!

so, i;m just asking....

just asking.

if anyone wants it. xD

i suppose its all the formula.

and you ppl can refer to it to study in order to not miss out ANY FORMULA.

so... this is the offer. xD

bye peeps.

xX physics madness Xx

specific heat capacity

The OH-NO Look

haihs. its 3.45AM and i'm still here....

holding my bio book..

trying to swallow it...

chew it with my teeth for physical digestion.

then let it mix with my salivary amylase to break the starch down into maltose.

starch + water --salivary amylase--> maltose.

then it goes down my oesophagus through peristalsis.

then it goes to my stomach.

with secretion of hydrochloric acid, rennin, pepsin and mucus.

with the digestion of protein by pepsin and coagulating milk by rennin.

note: rennin convert soluble milk protein to insoluble casein.

it become a chyme and goes to my small intestine.

duodonum is the first phase, bile emulsifies fat.

pancreatic juice contain trypsin, lipase and pancrytic amylase.

ileum completes the digestion.

all the nutrients are absorbed into my blood stream through microbilli and into the lacteal.

note* and hopefully it enters my mind. >.<

and all these stuff enters the colon.

and the undigested stuff are the formation of faeces.

and undergo defeacation.

TADAAAA~

lol. good now i remember. xD

cool. never thought of this. xD this is cool.

WOKAY. i'm done with chapter 6.

stupid nutrition! i'd rather go malnutrition than studying this. xP

wtv. proceeding to chapter 7. respiration.

lol. i would rather die. lols.....

bb

xX digestion Xx

X(

I'M STILL ALIVE!!! *officially

just posting something.

to let you all noe..

I'M ALIVE!!!

lol.

i survived through 3 days of ADD MATHS!!!

FREAKIN 3 DAYS!!

but then other than add maths...

i technically started NOTHING.

that reminds me.

i gotta go study physics.

at 2.30am.

lol.

bye peeps.

xX pressure Xx

>.<

up at 2.51AM. =)

xX add maths-ing Xx
*yawn*

ps: went youtube and listened to 'sorry sorry sorry' by super juniors just now. and now i couldnt' get the song out off my head. argh. >.<

pps: the Zi Ling virus is getting me. AAAAAAA!!

LOVES <3<3

i spend like my whole morning, 4 hours or so.

TO LISTEN TO CLASSICAL MUSICS on YOUTUBE!

lol. damn freakin nice man.

CELLO and PIANO~

who doesn't just love them man.

bach's cello suite no. 1

fantasie inpromptu

la campanella by this japanese was damn freakin nice.

GAGA~

lol. lets stop the craps.

xD

tata~

xX cello Xx
@.@

EXAMS!!

lol i shall join in the exam-already-so-no-blogging movement like everyone else.

hahahaha. xD

i shall let this blog

DIE.....

CORRODE......

DECOMPOSE..........

lol lol. shall see you guys during raya hols i guess. ^^

DON'T MISS ME. lol.

bb

xX exams Xx

yada yada~ xD

I'm getting very impressed with myself!! xD

i woke up at 9 WITHOUT MY ALRAM CLOCK!!

again. xD

ON A SUNDAY!!!

which is very cool as you people might noe i can wake up at 11am if i want to.


i had a dreadful dream. another depressing moment.

haihs.


AND AR!! i found out loads of my frens already started hitting the books man!!

and i sincerely say that i have not start on the progress!!

NOT A SINGLE BIT.

this time i mean it.
how i wish i was kidding!!

i'm so dead.
so i shouldn't be on9.

xX sunday Xx
one more day of holiday.

wow.. that's amazing!

Kai Hui is up at 8.30am on a SATURDAY!!!

wow

and most importantly....

WITHOUT HER ALARM CLOCK!!

xD

xXstudy leaveXx
enjoying it. lol

this is suffering..... >.<

It's amazing to have 50+ ppl on9 in MSN...

but yet no one that i would like to chat to...


its somehow frustrating. >.<


my mind is pretty much preoccupied by a thing.

i'm not certain of the thruth that lies within.


i hope i can find a way to get it off.


i off liao.

bb


xX craps Xx
is meant to be with crabs.

hmm...

lets make a conclusion.

1. i did not regret for the disaster ending.

2. i found my true interest and love in music

3. i want to practice harder to satisfy my music aspiration

4. i love music for wat it is

5. that someone acts as an important role in my heart.

conclusion: competition made me realise a lot.

xX thank you Xx
^^

ps: will write an official elaboration on this post next time. its an important turning point of my life.

'time' is four letters with complications..

when i say i don't mind,
you really think i mean it?

when i say i don need it,
you really think i don need it?

when i did not remind you,
you really think i don want you to noe?

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well thanks to everyone who wished me!

seriously, i din expect ppl to actually remember and wish me.

although i noe most of them are somehow 'REMINDED' lol.

but, nvm. ^^

thanks to

1. 4s4 to sing birthday song for me

2. PMO f4 kaki to sing in PMO hall

3. tuition buddies

4. PMO juniors

first time got four party to sing foe me. happi happi~

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i really did change a lot ever since i came to 4s4, didn't i?

i guess there is someone who notice that.

oh well.

tata~

xX16Xx
so wat?

1 day before Terengganu....

i dono how to put this actually. lol

i have MANY MANY thoughts in my head but how to put in in words? lol


firstly, i shall mede this statement as clear as possible.

you may have think i should be somorehow good in a way after staying back praticing all these weeks ( or maybe not).

but i hereby assure you that, you TOTALLY WRONG. lol


i was never a talented musician. i don learn fast.

so i should actually aplogize somehow to tan jie for being such a slow learner.

but YET, i'm really happy with the improvements i made this 3 days of marathon practice due to your teachings.

i could never had reach this point ( thought this point ain't high ) without you.

' got tan jie liao, not need wen zhun' haha



anyways, i'm pretty much not having any aims rite now.

aims?

nah.

having not reaching your aims is depressing and dissapointing.

although i want to enter semi final as much as possible.

but i'm prepared for the worse.


STILL!!

i'm gonna do my best.^^


shall elaborate soon.

AFTER THE COMPETITION.


shall go pack my luggage now.

i'm gonna turn my cupboard into a messy one.

lol. shalalalal~

GOOD LUCK TO ALL CHS, PMO PARTICIPANTS!!!

GAMBATE YO!!!!

AND TO MYSELF

AJAJAJAJJAAJJAJAJAJAJAJAJA

xXconfidence Xx

it actually exist?

1st day of my 3 DAYS PRACTICE MARATHON!!!!! *ajajajaja

teehee. holidays.....

for me, my holiday starts at night.

why?

here goes....

wake up at 7.20.

8am leave home with mommy.

approx 8.20 reach school.

run few rounds around the field.

sit down. rest.

warm up. basic skills.

hong jian come.

tan jie come.

slack.

practice.

slack.

practice.

........*the same thing repeats

lunch at 12.

digesting...

practice.

slack.

practice.

slack,

....*goes on still

leave PMO at 5pm with others.

take bus.

home. ^^
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WARNING

i strongly believe that NONE of you guys read the above statement.

but people....

GIVE ME FACE LAHHH!!!

read a bit lah.

dpn lyk that, see words then don read.

hurt my feelings only. T.T

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lets see. hmmm....

its nice to have a teacher accompanying you when you practice.

can point out mistakes mah.

but i keep slacking. haha

don wan choi him. xD

too baddd.....

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I'M DONE!!!

i mean this post.

although after this 8 hours marathon(what tan jie calls it) i'm not physically tired.

but MENTALLY tired.

fuuu~ fuuu~

almost slept in bus.

MY MISSION TOMORROW

1. emphasize my second and third page.

2. slack less

3. don DON listen to tan jie. haha

4.

GET HOLD OF TAN JIE'S HANDPHONE!!!

i suspect he has a girlfriend.

xD

but he shy shy, don let me see her photo.

SO!!!!

WHEN I GET HOLD OF THAT PHONE!!!

MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHA

xD

bye peopleS.

xX 1st day Xx

which means 2 days left.....

1. From now on, you can't tell lies.
okay?

2. Are you ready?
=.=

3. Think back six months ago, were you single?
yeap. i always am. ^^

4. What do you carry with you at all times?
my brain. unlike mon yun. ahahaha

5. When you say you don't care, do you mean it?
sometimes yea, sometimes no. 0.o

6. How are you feeling?
normal.

7. Is something wrong right now?
yea. i cant manage the first movement of my competition piece.

8. Are you mad at someone?
now? nope.

9. What's on your mind?
how to answer this question. xD

10. Are you jealous of someone right now?
nope. i don get jealous easily.

11. Do you have a piggy bank that's actually shaped like a pig?
yeap! haha. i think someone gave me as bd pres way back in primary. i use it to save my coins. xD

12. Do you want to start over with anyone?
how do i actually start OVER, when i never ever did start b4. xD

13. Do you know if anyone likes you?
i doubt it.

14. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
yea.

15. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
eat my dinner.

16. True love or 1 billion bucks?
dono. it depends. haha

17. Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
yea. a good friend of mine.

18. Anything you would change about your life right now?
yea. a bit i guess.

19. You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
a treble clef. uhm, my hand?

20. Could you cry right now?
huh? no lah. wth

21. Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?
RARELY. and its never stuff related guys.

22. How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
depends on what that thought is. haha. but its often.

23. Are you okay with the life you live?
somehow, yea.

24. Last person you told a secret to?
my Lam Lam. ^^

25. Do you like hugs?
see who hugging me lahh. =.=!!!

26. Do you believe true love can conquer anything?
nope. for now.

27. When was the last time you cried?
i dont remember. >.<

28. How much money did you spend today?
2 bucks.

29. What are you sitting on right now?
computer chair.

30. Who's the last person you IM'd?
wat's IM'd??? O.O

31. What's something you really want right now, be honest.
get into semi-final or even finals without humiliating myself. and get good grades in the 3rd exam. ^^

32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
unsatisfied. but i'm gonna live with it. haha

33. What did you do yesterday?
stuff i repeat every single day.

34. Would you forgive a friend for telling your biggest secret?
of course not. but i'm sure the PERSON who is holding my biggest secret now will not bocor it. RIGHT *insert name*????

35. Is there someone that makes you happy every time you speak with them?
yeap. no wait. it depends on how unhappy i am. so its not EVERY single time.

36. When's the last time you said you were fine and you really weren't?
recently. but i forgot when. xD

37. Is someone on your mind right now?
because you asked. someone just came across my mind.

38. Whose birthday is coming up?
MINE!!! and jia yee's. ^^

39. Were you happy when you woke up?
i'm emotionless when i wake up. i only want to go back to sleep.

40. What is one emotion you are feeling right now?
=.=normal.

41. What's the last thing you ate?
vegetables from dinner.

42. Are you easy to get along with?
i guess so. but this is not something for me to answer. =.=

43. Ever cheated on someone?
cheat on wat?

44. Who is the last person to send you a text?
i don wanna say this. later ppl start the stupid rumour again. xP

45. What are you currently listening to?
When you believe by mariah carey. and assorted classical musics.

Due to some technical error, we'll jump to 47.

47. I love you.
o.o

if someone tells you,

he or she had never made any mistakes in his or her life,

he or she must have never tried anything new.

OH NO!!!

WHY is ZI XIN & HUI QING fighting?!?!?!?

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INTENSE TRAINING PART 2: 1 week countdown

well its actually specifically 2 weeks countdown but i made the last week...

NOT a week. lol. so...

PEOPLE READ THIS

*those who are in the competition

well, the only reason i put in effort in this competition is because i don want to do something that i would regret later.

and i don like to be regretful.

if really, i couldn't enter semi-finals.

i don wanna be saying,

'i should have practiced that part more. haiyo. why was i slacking. T.T'

at least say,

'gah, at least i tried.'

so yea.

WIN with PRIDE,

LOSE with DIGNITY!

lol. plus, this is a once in a lifetime opportunity.

why so??

because 4 years from now. i may not be concentrating on music that much and spent less time on practicing.

or maybe not. ;p

so its impossible for me to enter a DI ZI SOLO COMPETITION again rite?

but, since i cannot foresee the future.

might as well just hold on tight on what is given to me now.

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for those who are thinking of quitting the competition now,

its the same theory.

DON'T REGRET!

if you didn't even try it.

how will you noe the results?

why keep on saying that since you would lose, so might as well just quit?!?!?

do you wanna regret?

looking back in time one day and regret that you should have at least enter and try this?

thinking you might actually have chance to enter semi-finals?

*well maybe not

BUT AT LEAST YOU TRIED!!!!

you noe how it feels.

so what if you did lose?

no harm done right!

no one would be laughing.

' haha you loser, semi-finals also cannot enter'

you are a failure when you don even try.

don say TRY as the matter in fact.

'TRY' is for LOSERS

'DO' is for WINNERS

*quote terry tee

DO IT!!

if you think you are not gud enuf,

going competition is just gonna embarass yourself.

then practice from now lahh!!!

like what tan jie said. the last 2 weeks may just be the time when you would push yourself to your limits.

so people....

when you are thinking of quitting now.

THINK AGAIN!

NOTHING is IMPOSSIBLE

IMPOSSIBLE is NOTHING

winning is not the main purpose to consider when you enter a competition.

it is to make you practice more and see improvement

see what you can do

=)

xX regrets Xx

useless