EHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

IF YOU ARE SOMEONE WHO RECENTLY SEE ME SAD.



ITS NOT ABOUT THE PREVIOUS FREN PROBLEM LAAAAAA.



man, talking about clarifying. so hard clarify.



the previous post WAS to clarify nothing between me and him jor lahh dude.



the recent sadness has TOTALLY ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do with him.



get it Qing? =/

ps: the posts b4 the previous post, posted when i private my blog.. the annonymous... ALSO NOT HIM. ==

pps: but i can still use some yao yao bing and sugar. xD

Must...

Clarify...

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To those who knows..

though very little do, but, for those very little ppl, you seem not convinced. ==

about the particular fren i have problems with.

ITS TOTALLY FINE NOW!! ><

sometimes i find myself weird. lol. i memang am. xD

i wasn't joking nor acting during the few months when i was sad.

because i don't. ==

and i'm not someone who would go all sad and depress for normal stuff.

and if it wans't that important to me, i wouldn't have told you anyhow...

but it seems that, now (let him be A) A is totallllyy like uhm.. normal to me?

i mean its hard to believe in just a month or so that there's totally nothing going on.

no hard feelings.

i'm perfectly fine that we're not that close anymore.

since the issue that make us have our cold war is permanent.

and i wouldn't want it to happen again.

SO, i rather go back to normal normal frens.

and i'm also ok with the fact that we're not talking or msn chatting.

no biggie dealie. xD

okok, its not that i'm someone who doens't take frenships seriously.

i'm not 花心(frens kind of flower heart).

its just that wat done is done.

and i'm taking it in perfectly.

that's fate perhaps.

if it wasn't for this cold war.

i maybe won't be so close to the close frens i have now. x)

hmmm...

actually after both of us had confessed...

that particular day...

on our real intentions and reasons..

the dead knot seem to untangle finally.

all along, the only reason i've been so depress about it,

is because of the word IF.

if i hadn't be so harsh.

if he had only ask.

if i took the first step.

if only he cared.

if only one of us make the first step.

the word if forbids me from getting out of the depressment.

what an evil word. xD

thus thus hence hence, lol, after all the problem solving..

this case finally close jor.

i took off the mobile phone thing he gave me.

the ONCE precious little thing. lol.

i wouldn't let something that carry no meaning hanging around my place.

from the day that string broke, it was meant to be took off. =)

=) I'M BLESSED.

i have frens that cared for me now.

YOU, YOU, YOU and YOU. lol. (fill in the blanks yourself la. haha. don need me tell one.^^)

a lost of a fren brought me so many others. its a blessing in disguise afterall. ^^

..

everything is related.

it affects one another.

no this no that, no that no this.

there's nothing you can do about it.

other than accepting it.

well,

that's fate.

that's life.

and you'll need to learn to love it.

rather than living in the past.

and trying to change wat you can't.

*this is an unemo post (:*

musiciousity~~

KOEWOKIKASETE!!!

lol. hmm?

i've decided to reopen my blog.

zzzz.

actually i never closed it down anyways. xD
i only made it private. lols.

and only invited qing and des to read. ==
(not because i only want them to read but practically because they are the only 2 who requested an invitation and the ONLY 2 to realise i've privated my blog) ==

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now why change my mind upon making it public again?

awww come on, what's a blog for if you want no one to read!! LOL.

that would be a diary instead of a blog. xD

and i wouldn't post anything too secretive since my darkest secrets i don even tell my closest frens. ==

lolness. and as you can see, after i've privated my blog, the entries that i written still make the person i'm talking about annonymous. haha.

so yea. ^^

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ps: if you see this post. lolness, tell me. xD i want to know who still reads my blog. haha. =)

i only wanna tell YOU about my bad mood.

because i think you would be the only one who cared and understand.
and then reply me with the words that will ease the pain. =/

no see you online i also lazy tell anyone else. sigh.

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crappy post.

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argh, the heart-pain-chest-pain-can't-breathe-pain appeared again. ><

since when did i start crying after songs....

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