err... actually no need read de. i just wrote out my tangling messy thought out. seriously. no need read


can you believe it?



one year... (almost)

few more weeks and i'm not a form 4 anymore.

what awaits me are unpredictable.

well, life is unpredictable.

i totally understand that now.


been through a year.

this is definitely not an easy.


i start off real sad, stress, frustrated, helpless, pathetic, useless, unconfident, being blamed on, being wrongly justified.

that few starting months were really hard on me.

life back then was unbearable. now that i thought of it,

its already so long ago.


questions that i strained to find answers.

disasters i tried to refrain from.

worries i fear.

results that i hid away..


from worrying, and living in anxiety...

now is far over.


stuff that i once cared about.

are merely a pea now.



if you had to say, i really did learned a lot this year.

learning from the bads,

and changed for the better.

learning from the goods,

and tried to be that.





i learned that,

in life, you may have done a lot.

sacrificed a lot for a certain stuff.


but with one harmless thing you've done wrong.

you'll be the one for the blame.


i always scolded those characters in dramas,

for being wrongly blamed but yet not tell the thruth.

expecially in korean drama.

but now i understand,

i really do.

sometimes you just cant do much.





i learned that,

if you always cared about wat ppl think of you.

you'll leave in sorrows.

the way ppl treat you.

ppl think of you.


is it THAT important.


expecially with those useless suckers.

do you need to care.


well obviously no.

as long as you noe you did nothing wrong.

wtf. who cares. well, not me.


i've always say.

ppl who didn't like me.

i dont like them too.

they aint worth for me to hate.




but there are stuff that i learned too.

in a good way.



i think the BEST MEMORY i had this year.

is in PMO CAMP.


i learned how good ppl around me can be.

i learned to trust.

i learned to share joys.

i learned to work in a group, in a form.

i learned how to sacrifice for my frens. ( that hot games under the torturing suns )

i learned to be grateful for the others.

i learned to help.

i learned to be help.


those day,

during the camp.


how tired all of us can be.

we never gave up.


PMO...

a place where i learned the MOST FROM.

if you didn't know.

all the stuff i wrote up there is all learned from PMO. lol


i will never forgot the days living in school.

its the family feeling that i cannot forget.


4 years ain't short.

it makes me feel old thinking back.


its like almost all our batch.

you understnad them like you never had.


especially lam ar, zi xin ar, jia hui ar..... and................................... 2810841608743614 how list all. lol


you know wat you can do.

you noe wat makes them angry.

you noe wat you need not care.

frens that i'm close to or not.

had changed me in certain ways.

all of the ppl i thanked earlier.

really appreciated it.


friday saturday repeating.

competition that time sommore everyday.

i love you guys.


i'm happy because of you guys.

but i'm also sad sometime because of those guys.

my secondary life is full with you guys.





to be continued....