if that's how fragile our friendship is, then there's no point of keeping it.

2011's almost ending.. i have this illusion that it's already 2012. o.o
so anyways, a post about

11 things i did in 2011

is coming up. as a continuation of my

http://xxvirgogurlxx.blogspot.com/2010/12/1o-things-i-did-in-2010-1.html last year.

it sums up my year and promises more achievements in a year as the number grows.

right now i'm
#freakingout

TOOPID EXTERNALS RUINED MY SEMBREAK.

so actually i just felt bored and came to blog. which is totally not something i'm supposed to do. ==

as the end of the year draws near, i start to reflect back on myself.

what did i learn after going through 365 days?
well i certainly did, and one of them is..

letting go.

i seemed to be clinging on stuff too much.
the fact that changes are inevitable seems to never sip into my mind.
but its getting in.. slowly.


i ceased to try stopping things from changing.
protecting things that were never meant to be protected.
if it was to change, it will change.
no matter how much i've tried.
if it's that fragile, then i'll let it go.
if it's that fragile, it's not worth my time.
everlasting? oh please, don't deceive yourself.


as we grow up, we don't lose friends.
we realise who the true ones are.
words never prove anything,
time does.


so i don't care whats true,
what's sincere,
what's loyalty,
what's one's importance.
there's nothing so much as 'i can't live without you'
'you are irreplaceable'
because what you see is not necessarily true,
what you think is not necessarily right.


when you block yourself from all possibilities,
you're further away from the truth than ever.
don't convince yourself,
let time convince you.
don't be an idiot.


lalalalalalalla~ ok la. damn sien dy. wait for my next post bah.
2 weeks till 2012. ajajaajajajaja

i see through the mask on your face,
i see through the soul within you,
now i know how filthy you are,
don't hide your real intentions,
because i see it now.


all the lies you've been telling,
all the lies you've been doing,
don't act like you know me,
don't act like you care,
because i see it now.


how naive i must have been,
how triumphant you must have felt,
but not any longer..
because i see it now.

....
yes, i'm venting my anger just like that in words,
and there's nothing you can do.
#likeaboss

....

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA EXAMMMMMMM