i thought that was the end of my ultimate bad luck day.

but i realise it just only got started....

just now that post i was just plain angry.

now i'm actually feeling depressed.

the feel of cant breathe.

suffocating.

helpless.

strengthless.

weak.. and very weak.

i just tasted and am tasting them right now.

i cant be as optimistic as i always have been.

whenever i'm sad, i put all the dhamma quotes i have learnt into mind. but i guess i cant do them this time.

i'm in such a dilemma. and no one can help me with that.

i'm not feeling sorry for myself. it has nothing to do with myself.

i'm not typing this out because you can help me.

then i dono wat i'm doing.

i think i need slp.