mia

CODENAME: Missing In Action (a.k.a. MIA)

Name: PotassiumHydride

Status: currently MIA-ing

exam

Boom Cha Ka La Ka~ 


well you can ignore the title, it's from Big Bang's new song 'Fantastic Baby'

ANYWAYS,


disclaimer: this is gonna be a wordy and whiny post. feel free to click [x] button now.


i'm here to update you guys on my results.

i don't even know why i'm embarrassing myself here. =_=

i just felt like sometimes if i make a vow on blog instead of my diary...
i tend to keep and carry it out better.
it serves as a reminder.

cause its like i have readers seeing it, being a witness..
altho it may be ppl i know or not know.

and so i won't destroy my reputation and humiliate myself by breaking THE vow.



well, to be forthright.

my results are as follow.

Chemistry 1       114/120  A
Chemistry 2       98  /120  A
Physics 1           94  /120  B
Physics 2           120/120  A
Core Maths,1    96  /100  A
Core Maths.2    97  /100  A
Core Maths.3    100/100  A
Core Maths.4    98  /100  A
Further Pure 1   100/100  A
Stats.1              100/100  A


okay, i wouldn't say its a terrible result.
ppl would scold me and say 'wtf, you results very good lo' and so on.

but you must understand, this is definitely not up to par.
i do not compare with others.
i compare with myself,  and only myself.


i mean, I NEED TO RETAKE 1 PAPER!!!
AND I DEFINITELY STUDY A LOT FOR PHY1.

okay, its obvious that it wasn't sufficient enough for me to obtain an A.
AND ITS 2 MARKS TO A!!!!

such borderline pisses my off.
the paper was hell difficult. and i'm not the only one to had to resit this paper fyi.
=_= well, who could i blame except myself.
my class genius got full marks for this paper, and which is the source of the huge disappointment towards myself.

i feel so dumb. =_=
CONSIDER THE AMOUNT OF EFFORT I PUT IN.
even my Chem 2 sucks. its such borderline results again, i swear i studied chem 2 like gaga alrd.
maybe not as much as others.. sigh
i suppose if i didn't, i wouldn't have even gotten an A. =_=

AND MY C1 C2!!!!!!!!!!!! NO 100%%%%%%
such ironic pls. c3 fp1 100% c4 98%
..
and c1 c2 i got 96% 97%
Dafuq. i definitely checked that paper over and over again lo.
whatthehell went wrong.
you say c4 i no get 100% okay la, i really didn't thoroughly checked that paper, didn't have time.
c1 c2? i checked like 2 3 times. )':

***

SO enough of complaining.
that fact that i need to retake phy1 is so.. surreal.
carrying back my pile of phy1 books from storeroom requires such huge bravery that right now i do not have.
cowardice.
you don't understand, if you say i had to retake some subjects i took too lightly then fine. but phy1 was the one i studied to the mostttt in. =_=


maybe the effort i put in was as light as a feather relative to other frens.
i blame myself for being too confident.
and slacking too much during the holiday.
cant believe i'm indeed regretting right now when i vowed before exam not to. =_=

***

i have so much in hand right now i don't know whether i could actually cope or not.

usual everyday lessons, and homeworks.
and another round of reading to make sure i thoroughly understand my lessons.
tests.
EUCLID contest.
i'm still considering whether i should join Toray Competition or not.

NOT TO MENTION!!!
NEXT EXTERNALS IS 2 MONTHS AWAYYYYYY
WTHHHH

2 months is really a very short period alright.
mocks come even earlier than that.
and there's no study break.
i supposed i'm gonna have some self-proclaimed study break then. :p

***

i've regained my study mojo.
and i'm gonna do what i've promised myself earlier on.

i suppose i won't blog and bake as often from now on. ):

cheer up hui. (:

hope that i have enough strength to sustain myself throughout 2nd externals all over again.



i mean, why can't i? (:


ps: for all other edexcel peeps, congratulations if you scored well. but if you didn't, get a grip yourself, and work hard for the next. (:

its not the end of the world, just the end of the day.