i don understand why i still care for you anyways... zz

msn wait you on,

wait you off.

zz

you mister is the reason why my online time increased! x(

zz

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

zzzz

i don't like ppl calling me by my surname.

its not that i don like my surname..
as the matter in fact i'm proud that my surname is 胡 Wu. seriously.

i just dislike ppl calling me by it, don't ask me why.

and this is for you hui qing. zzz

and secondly, my name is wu, not wooo.

i don't find it funny nor cute. == zz

zzz so stop quit calling me wu.

ps: dono how tell you directly, you keep thinking it was funny. zz.

i'm tired of being angry.

i'm tired of being jealous.

i'm tired of being depressed.

i'm tired of being disappointed.

i'm tired of being forgotten.

i'm tired of being used.

i'm tired of being fake.

...

i'm tired of being tired.

and i'm tired of you.

I've had had enough.

i'm sick and tired of all these.

EHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

IF YOU ARE SOMEONE WHO RECENTLY SEE ME SAD.



ITS NOT ABOUT THE PREVIOUS FREN PROBLEM LAAAAAA.



man, talking about clarifying. so hard clarify.



the previous post WAS to clarify nothing between me and him jor lahh dude.



the recent sadness has TOTALLY ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do with him.



get it Qing? =/

ps: the posts b4 the previous post, posted when i private my blog.. the annonymous... ALSO NOT HIM. ==

pps: but i can still use some yao yao bing and sugar. xD

Must...

Clarify...

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To those who knows..

though very little do, but, for those very little ppl, you seem not convinced. ==

about the particular fren i have problems with.

ITS TOTALLY FINE NOW!! ><

sometimes i find myself weird. lol. i memang am. xD

i wasn't joking nor acting during the few months when i was sad.

because i don't. ==

and i'm not someone who would go all sad and depress for normal stuff.

and if it wans't that important to me, i wouldn't have told you anyhow...

but it seems that, now (let him be A) A is totallllyy like uhm.. normal to me?

i mean its hard to believe in just a month or so that there's totally nothing going on.

no hard feelings.

i'm perfectly fine that we're not that close anymore.

since the issue that make us have our cold war is permanent.

and i wouldn't want it to happen again.

SO, i rather go back to normal normal frens.

and i'm also ok with the fact that we're not talking or msn chatting.

no biggie dealie. xD

okok, its not that i'm someone who doens't take frenships seriously.

i'm not 花心(frens kind of flower heart).

its just that wat done is done.

and i'm taking it in perfectly.

that's fate perhaps.

if it wasn't for this cold war.

i maybe won't be so close to the close frens i have now. x)

hmmm...

actually after both of us had confessed...

that particular day...

on our real intentions and reasons..

the dead knot seem to untangle finally.

all along, the only reason i've been so depress about it,

is because of the word IF.

if i hadn't be so harsh.

if he had only ask.

if i took the first step.

if only he cared.

if only one of us make the first step.

the word if forbids me from getting out of the depressment.

what an evil word. xD

thus thus hence hence, lol, after all the problem solving..

this case finally close jor.

i took off the mobile phone thing he gave me.

the ONCE precious little thing. lol.

i wouldn't let something that carry no meaning hanging around my place.

from the day that string broke, it was meant to be took off. =)

=) I'M BLESSED.

i have frens that cared for me now.

YOU, YOU, YOU and YOU. lol. (fill in the blanks yourself la. haha. don need me tell one.^^)

a lost of a fren brought me so many others. its a blessing in disguise afterall. ^^

..

everything is related.

it affects one another.

no this no that, no that no this.

there's nothing you can do about it.

other than accepting it.

well,

that's fate.

that's life.

and you'll need to learn to love it.

rather than living in the past.

and trying to change wat you can't.

*this is an unemo post (:*

musiciousity~~

KOEWOKIKASETE!!!

lol. hmm?

i've decided to reopen my blog.

zzzz.

actually i never closed it down anyways. xD
i only made it private. lols.

and only invited qing and des to read. ==
(not because i only want them to read but practically because they are the only 2 who requested an invitation and the ONLY 2 to realise i've privated my blog) ==

...

now why change my mind upon making it public again?

awww come on, what's a blog for if you want no one to read!! LOL.

that would be a diary instead of a blog. xD

and i wouldn't post anything too secretive since my darkest secrets i don even tell my closest frens. ==

lolness. and as you can see, after i've privated my blog, the entries that i written still make the person i'm talking about annonymous. haha.

so yea. ^^

....

ps: if you see this post. lolness, tell me. xD i want to know who still reads my blog. haha. =)

i only wanna tell YOU about my bad mood.

because i think you would be the only one who cared and understand.
and then reply me with the words that will ease the pain. =/

no see you online i also lazy tell anyone else. sigh.

...

crappy post.

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argh, the heart-pain-chest-pain-can't-breathe-pain appeared again. ><

since when did i start crying after songs....

...

i would be really happy if i would cross your mind before you sleep.

at least it means i'm part of your life.

Mom Me

you noe the old man, who always lingers around our neighbourhood?
the bald headed wan ar

the wan always sit at the lorong there?

yea, he was lying and the padang's bench these days, you noticed?

not really, why?

*hahahaha*

why? wat happened? =D




he died.


firstly, my mom didn't laugh because the man died but because..
somehow when my neighbours told my mom about the incident, in a very weird way...
which makes my mom find the WAY OF TELLING funny? i dono.
nevermind that.


man, when i heard that he passed away, i was so shocked wei.
my mouth was opened in astonishment.
my heart literally dropped into my stomach.

i don find any bit of it as a laughing matter.


he's an homeless old man who always sit at the lorong beside beside my house,
who never seems to bother me when i walk pass him to go tuition.
(other than making me feel a bit scared)


mom say he would begged for money,
but only accept anything more than RM1.
you give 10 bucks he don wan one.

only RM1.


sigh.


i dont seem to be able to deal with death.
i'm lucky and blessed to not deal with death matter until now. *thank god*

but i noe i'll have to face them one day.



perhaps the old man will be better in another world,
being homeless and poor must have been hard for him.
and i believe he had a sad past.


no matter.
may he rest in peace.

Whenever i'm thinking of you,
i know you'll never know.

i wonder if you would think of me sometimes,
and i won't know about it too. ;)

haha.

Those facebook status are not meant for him....

ITS FOR YOU DUMBO! ==

yiish.

most of the time when i say it doesn't matter,

it really does matter a lot.

.....

but what's the freakin use of letting you know that?

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

i dono how start leh.
see that des keep bloody here bloody there. polluted my mind.
okok.

gonna blog about trolak loh... must contribute to pmo mah. hahahaha.

if wanna read schedule and those stuff de, go read that tian ming's wan lah.
haiyo, write until report like that..
*but he everytime also write like that de lah.* =P

okok.

KAI HUI's version

1st day

reach school dance.

12.30 go out bus no come.
WAS DAMN WORRIED MAN!!!
that bus driver sommore so pissed. kesian hong ken.
say will delay an hour. :O
teachers sommore stand there keep blaming us oni, talk talk no do things. ==


bus came


icebreaker. go say ' XXX if you love me, please XXX '
oOOooOo... DAMN SWEET MAN. xD
1. desmond find jia hui
2. tian ming find shiin yi
3. chuen hong find weng hei * but attempt failed, he come find me in the end. ==


grouping i grouped in LA
zi xin, tian yoon, mei en, chun hoe, melanie, jia yi


GA darn funny, i randomly picked a paper, and then i open....
then i read... then i see.... and i see 胡凯慧 ==
i was laughing like mad. xD
then when i pick a paper again, i got 嘉毅
== i same group with him sommore.


my guardian damn good, for 3 days, he..
1. gave me a bottle of 100+
2. a packet of sweets
3. help me take a FULL plate of food EVERY MEAL
4. give me desserts
5. feed till me fat
6. help me take luggage
7. night walk teman me all the way, except when entering the forest.
8. every night send me a sms ' 晚安美女' xD

my guardian is 荣森. ^^
谢谢帅哥

NIGHT WALK

damn scary lah this thing.
there's TWO2 things i fear in life. AND THE MOST FEARFUL ONE IS

DARK!!!!

eh, dai lou, i don even dare to sleep in a dark alone man.
when the my house black out, i scared until i cant scream man.
iish.

was damn scared lah, almost fang qi.
along the way, was holding 启耀's hand and 荣森's hand.
holding 启耀's hand is like holding a lil bro's hand.
(but i was raelly more frightened than he is==")
holding 荣森's hand like holding a normal fren's hand
( i neither feel protected nor safe)

SO! IN CONCLUSION.
if you wanna noe whether a guy is right for you.
go hold his hand and go to a scary place. xDDDDDDD

thats why i say night walk very suitable for couples. hahahah


2nd day

wake up. dance.

damn stupid lah. i myself oso blur blur de.
@.@

station games i photographer. run here run there.
iish, tiring.


HIGH ROPE!!

another stupid things.
i mentioned earlier that i fear 2 things in life.

NOW HEIGHTS IS THE 2ND THING!!!!!

stupid trip, put 2 of my uttermost fearful thing inside the trip. ><
i reluctant to go up loh.
almost gave up and fake fake say i finish dy.

and the mosquitoes there macam no suck blood b4. now my leg still itches.

desmond and jia hui temaned me to be scared. xD

jia hui went up, cried a bit?
des leg trembled, but did no harm, except when coming down, the frogman almost flew up. haha
zi ling cried.
jia ying cried.

hui qing pushed me up.

the first part of the rope i not scared lah. but 2nd part. ><

i like don dare look down loh. i look straight only.
stupid chuen hong keep shouting down there. i was like SHUT UP!! ^^
but managed to walk pass it lah, though very slow and trembling.=(

then i almost couldn't jump off the rope. haha

hui qing say tian ming scared of heights, say must look at him from down there.
mana tau, he walk darn super fast, tipu saje.

hong ken lagi funny, LAST ONE TO GO UP.
haha, des was like pulling down the frog man when he came down, and the frogman couln't stand dtill on the ground. hahaha.


TALENT NIGHT

zi xin damn stupid lah. ahhaa.
best actress!! xD

stupid GASTBY PRINCE.
though we got 3rd for the group placing.
but i'm glad everyone enjoyed it( i think )
especially for zi xin stuck horse on stage. xD



3rd day


OBSTACLE COURSE.

quite fun lah. especially the crossing water wan. damn fun. xD

the shake shake board thing almost kena me during single crossing.
i have no idea why it shaked so much. lan and joo lin was laughing like mad on the other side.
sommore i last one.

stupid joo lin, laugh laugh laugh, after i helped you cross the water part. =P

then pack

then go home.

......................................THE END................................................

ok lah, i noe mine damn short.

lalala.

at least i put effort to write one. xP

after that day, banyak ppl sick.

including me. ==

fever next day. =(

till then

TATA

=S

please DO NOT check back my blog.

good if you don't. bye

OMG

who could those 2 be????

omg. i think one of them is.. chan hon???

then another one...

omg..

it cant be true... 8O

ITS HONG KEN!!!

lol

WHAT ARE THEY DOING??????



lol. hong ken is so gonna kill me when he see this.

psst. don tell him i put this up k? spoiling his reputation. xD

rmb don tell him. >.<


xX wu liao Xx
gays..


ps: nah, they're just playing chan hon's iphone. the tap tap game. lo. DAMN SYIOK WAN. xD

you guys kinda sien hor? i oso dono wat i can do. lol. can lah~ 2 photoes first bah. x)

ps: at least i'm better than a girl who didn't update since hols started and 2 guys who made their blog private.... right?? xD

YOU KNOW WAT???

i can't believe there's ppl reading my lame long meaningless crap...

lol.

haha. TAN ZI LING.

since you would read my blog. you would probably see this. xD


ar la. i dono wat to say, sommore you would leave comments man.. woah. xD


xXzi lingXx
sorry sorry sorry~ xD